Yes I know, I have neglected this little random thought journal. Trust me the blogger world would not be concerned with my latest product derived from my boredom. Posting a link here would only reveal my true weirdness in all its glory. So maybe you will stumble upon it one day and comment on the weirdness and lack of life and social skills needed to create such a place on the www for nothing but my own enjoyment. Although obviously others share my weird hobby seeing as I have already received email from the rest of the odd internet users out there. Maybe I am not alone afterall? I once heard that the internet is socially damaging since it brings forth all these weridos to have a place to congregate together and share their weirdness with each other and by doing so are able to get a feeling of belonging in this cruel world and are able to believe that they are not so weird afterall. Unlike those folks, I maintain that I am weird. I do not argue that, however much weirder appalling hobbies do exist, making mine actually seem acceptable in comparison.
I have decided that I need to stop being concerned with other people and their feelings. Caring more about others more than myself is the main reason others always seem to be happier than myself. Of course they are, here sits the doormat they get to travel over and wipe the mud off their feet before entering their clean house. All the while leaving mine dirty. So no more: from now on: F*ck that. I no longer care if you like me, I am who I am, I am what I say and as others have probably pointed out behind my back the grumpiest most pessimistic soul alive.
Its Christmas. It brings out my worst. When the rest of the world is concerned about spreading Christmas cheer I am sulking in the background cursing under my breeath that those cheer delivers will die a horrible cruel death with Christmas carol's playing in the background. Maybe then they will realize that spreading Christmas cheer is not chestnuts by the fire (or however that song goes) but doing something every day to bring some cheer. Smile at the person in the elevator, pick up the item the woman in line in front of you dropped and smile. Buy someone else dinner. Give four people a good compliment everyday, or heck just tell them that you appreciate them. Cooperate Christmas is nothing to do with Christmas at all. Overheard Leeann Rimes new Christmas CD playing today. WTF? Does she think she is spreading the Christmas spirit? If she was truly spreading the Christmas spirit the B*tch would come up off some of that money and make at least one strangers life a little easier. Maybe take the profit of her Christmas CD sales and buy a homeless family a home. Not just picking on lean rim's here ether, just came to mind when I heard it that all these musicion who claim to be spreading Christmas cheer is also part of the cooperate Christmas, you know they wouldn't do that she*t for free.
On a more organized rational thought: This website is way cool. Esp. if you have a website (or in my case several) and find it humorous to return to five years ago and pull up a screenshot of what you thought needed to be on the front page. Internet Archive: Wayback Machine For those of you that do not have a website of your own you can waste your time pulling up someone else's. Just type in the address and off you go.
Now don't you wish I would have continued to neglect this thing instead of coming here and randomly typing? Actually this was quite relaxing, to just type my thought as I thought them, not even stopping to make sure I have used correct spelling or grammar. Better spell check this one. Well maybe not.
