Tom Cruise warning: this is a long one

I usually find that I am way behind the latest celebrity scandal or gossip. Most of the time, I just do not care. After hearing some blurb about Tom Cruise’s statements regarding Brooke Sheilds and her postpartum depression, I had to take the time to look up what exactly it was everyone was talking about. Now I wish I didn’t because all I want to do is hit Mr. Cruise in the head with a large object. . HERE is the complete interview if you are like me and didn’t hear the whole thing somewhere already.

I hate ignorance. I especially hate the type of ignorance that is coupled with arrogance. I have to assume that Mr. Cruises life has not been inflicted with any type of mental illness, or anyone close to him either. But to sit on national TV,. and state that you have “researched” psychiatry and are therefore in the position to make qualified statements to the general public is bird-brained. He mislead many people by making these statements, and I hope that one of his fans did not fall for his statements and stop taking their medications. I would have to assume by his statements that he has researched this completely which would in my opinion require some kind of college degree. However the facts are Tom Cruise didn’t even graduate high school, let alone college. Brooke Sheilds on the other hand is a Princeton Graduate.

I personally do not consider myself any one specific religion. I believe totally in religious freedom and the right to practice whatever it is you believe. In my opinion humans have no right to preach to one another as to what anyone should believe or think. I do on the other hand have a very strong disgust for some religions that in my mind are more exemplary of a cult than a religion. While I admire Mr. Cruise for putting his beliefs out in the open, I am disgusted by his attitude that his belief is the correct one.
Scientology, the religion Mr. Cruise practices to me is closer to a fairytale then most others. I have noticed that most cults seem to have one thing in common. All of them are founded by some individual that defiantly displays some Narcissistic Personality Disorder Symptoms. The leaders grandiose sense of self-importance, belief that he or she is "special" and unique and can only be understood by, or should associate with, other special or high-status people (or institutions) and requires excessive admiration. (definition from Mental Help) fits the founder L. Ron Hubbard. This quote made by him in Readers Digest pretty much sums it all up I think, "Writing for a penny a word is ridiculous. If a man really wants to make a million dollars, the best way would be to start his own religion".

I found this website quite humerous: www.tomcruiseisnuts.com

I need more days like this!

I called off from work today. The stress, not sleeping etc. Was too much. Not too mention that with everything else on my mind this week I forgot to take my meds for two days, which if your not familiar with anitdepressants is not a good thing unless you like the feeling of dizziness, nausea and varied other great symptoms of withdrawal. So with the room spinning and the nausea I just decided that I couldn't do it today. I could not go in with a smile and pretend all is good. I usually only call in a few days a year, so this will be the first this year.

My boss calls. Which at first made me a little nervous, but I figured the worst would be that I was fired. Instead I was surprised to hear of myself getting a two dollar an hour raise! If I would have known calling in is how you get a raise I would have done it much sooner :)

The house loan is for sure. The bank president ok'd it today, and now all I have to do is wait for the title transfers, appraisers, etc. So today I know I am getting a house and thanks to my raise I can pay for it! Maybe I should go buy a lottery ticket tonight.

This should be illegal!

When I visit a restaurant I normally tip pretty well. Usually over the 15% or whatever it is you are supposed to tip. However I have been known to not tip at all, even once leaving a few pennies. I would only do that if the service was really really bad, or the waiter was very rude. I can think of only three times that I did this. Once was because the waitress brought the food out cold, walked away and never not once filled our empty drinks. She spent the entire time arguing with a co-worker who I assumed was some sort of love affair gone wrong type of thing. I do not take my personal problems to work, and I do not expect anybody else to either. I left her three pennies. You don't find me listing a she*tty pts. List on my blog, afterall that would be illegal. Taking names from credit cards to add to a public list should also be illegal (maybe it is I don't know for sure here). One more reason to use cash and leave those cards in the wallet. If people are dishonest enough to take your name what else are they stealing off of your card? Heres the link: Sh*tty Tipper Database

I need sleep! LOL

This has been the most anxiety producing week I have had in a long time. I found a house that I just have to have. I made a offer Monday, and to my surprise they took it. The house is in need of a lot of repairs. Basic stuff like new carpet, paint, siding, cabinets, toilets. The floors are all solid and the roof has no leaks which is great. It was a repossessed home and a quick trip to the tax office yielded the current bank that holds it. I nervously awaited the news of my bid for it, and it came Tues. Along with a need for all my credit information. Now this to me is the worst part. A promise I made to my grandfather who cosigned for my first car at 17, that I would always keep good credit, not buy anything on credit I don't need and to not live beyond my means, that I have kept, I shouldn't have any reason to worry. But that's just me. When I talked to my best friend about this I got the same old thing, "Why do you have to be so damned pessimistic, be happy and excited for once damnit"! I still have spent the week tossing and turning, not sleeping and stressing out. Today I got the news that there does not seem to be any reason that the bank cannot finance this for me. Tomorrow I have to go in and take all the proper paperwork and start the whole loan process. I am still stressed some, and still believe that for some reason even though I have been told they don't foresee a problem that the bottom will drop tomorrow and I won't get it. On one hand no big deal I guess, I still have nine acres to build on if I want to, but the waiting...And the stress...God help me! I don't drink but if this is ever over I may start! LOL

Karma

I wouldn’t call myself too superstisous. I don’t exactly believe something bad will happen if a black cat crosses my path, but I have wished on a few stars. However if I have learned anything working with the elderly, it is plain to me that what you do comes back to you. I am thankful to have learned this through others eyes. I hope that in some way I have spared myself a little by seeing others mistakes. Here are a couple of true examples.

Example number one. A frail aging elderly woman sits all alone in her wheelchair surrounded by art; expensive bedside chairs, beautiful linen, and blocks the sun with drapes that would have cost me a three months salary. Her whole life she has had enough money to do anything she wants. It is obvious the things she chose to do with her time and money benefited her and only her. Her children don’t visit, not one of the four of them. Her husband is dead. I have watched her cry more then once when no one comes for facility dinners when family is invited. I listen when she tells me no one cares. I also listen when others talk. Others that knew her before me. I have heard that her children were raised by a maid. She spent lots of money and time traveling to fancy places, leaving her children with the maid. She spent thousands of dollars taking her beautiful dogs to dog shows. Her children were with the maid. How can I feel sympathy for someone that had no concern in life except for themselves? How can you spend your whole life ignoring your children and feeling sorry for yourself when no one wants to visit you? Although I maintain a level of professionalism, and attempt to provide an answer when she asks me, “Why don’t they care”? I know that she is reaping what she sewed. I don’t hold it against her. In a lot of ways I wish I could thank her for the lesson she has taught me.

Example number two. A young woman wastes her life away partying, hanging out with friends and having numerous men come in and out of her life. At 30 she finds herself with multiple sclerosis and a 10 year old daughter. She is already living in government housing, on welfare and food stamps. Not because she needed those things before she became sick, but because she chose to support her way of life rather then herself and her daughter. Her sister on the other hand, attends college, marries a nice man and has her own children. The young woman finds that her sister is more then willing to help her get on her feet. Not once or twice, but too many times too count. Her daughter, who grows up never seeing her mother ever work at anything but manipulating others to help her out, grows up to also believe that somebody owes her something, just because. She doesn’t work, has two small children, and spends her days calling anyone she can think of to help her out because she has a new emergency. Usually it is money she desperately needs. Between the two of them, they have used up all the people that love them. Me included. I have bought the mother shampoo, soap, cigarettes, McDonalds etc. I always was promised that I would be paid back “at the first of the month”. I never have been. I am a generous person, I would have been happy with an attempt. Even a dollar of the fifty I spent would be a nice start.

And now I have reached my point here. (I know I have a long way of getting there) I hope somebody slaps me if I ever take for granted the people in my life that mean the most.

Lost

I am so addicted to ABC's Lost. I hate that we were left hanging in the last episode. I just cannot wait until the new season. There are so many ideas as to what is actually occurring on this show everything from that they are truly just lost to that they are actually spending time in some type of purgatory. At this point I do not know for sure what to think. I do believe that it has some kind of evil supernatural, paranormal type activity to the whole situation, but it is hard to draw conclusions to something that has been continued until next season. Whatever the case, I am hooked which is rare, since I normally do not watch TV.

Anyway the point of this post is...I was excited to hear that Lost is up for 12 different Emmy nominations. This tells me that the show will at least continue and not be cancelled, therefore my addiction will be fed.

Top 100 Albums

Spins top 100 albums of the last 20 years, inspired my own list of my top albums. I will warn you, my top 100 is probably not anywhere close to anyone else out there. I am also not going to list 100! I am not listing them in any type of order. I like many types of music, some a little more mainstream then others.

1. Def Leppard-Hysteria-I happen to own most of Def Leppards albums, but this is the first one I ever owned, and Pour Some Sugar on Me is still a favorite.

2. Goo Goo Dolls-Superstar Carwash-I love the Goo Goo Dolls, I own all of their albums and it is very hard for me to pick just one. But if I had to, this would be it.

3. Blink 182-Blink 182- I own several Blink 182’s albums. This is my favorite.

4. New Found Glory-Nothing Gold Can Stay-I believe that New Found Glory is one of those bands that you like or dislike. I like them.

5. Tori Amos-Little Earthquakes - When I first heard the song “Crucify” I was hooked.

6. Patty Loveless-Mountain Soul-I am not real big on country music, but I love bluegrass music. Especially the older songs that is included on this cd. I have always wanted to learn to play the banjo and violin, these songs feel like home to me. I grew up hearing my grandpa play, unfortunately I got no musical talent in my genes.

7. Ozzy Osbourne-No More Tears-I am not usually an Ozzy fan. I have been guilty of watching the Osbournes reality show, although I think his family is crazy. I feel a little bad watching their crazy life and finding humor in their screwed up life and how stupidly they handle it. But I do like this album.

8. Body Count- This album is violent and full of bad language, but I can’t help it. I love it. If anybody ever wondered if I am crazy this one probably proves it. I once lost a cd case at work, to have my boss find it and have to describe the cds in it to reclaim it. What in the world is Body Count? She asked. I told her well it was a project the rapper Ice T did, and I just like it, Oh she said maybe I should listen to it I might like it, I need to hear some of the music you kids listen to…I was mortified. I knew if she heard that my nursing career might stop right there. I was honest and told her that. She laughed. She didn’t ask to listen to it again.

9. The 80’s Greatest Rock Hits-From The Heart- I have purchased this cd three times. The first two times a friend wanted to borrow it, both friends never returned it they loved it to.

10. Eddie Money Greatest Hits, The Sound of Money- Eddie Money was a little before my time, I don’t know where I first heard this cd. But I do know I have listened to it for a long time. I first owned it on cassette, although cd players were in almost every car, my first car was lacking more modern conveniences then a cd player. I then bought it on cd la few years back.

11. Soul Asylum-Let Your Dim Light Shine-A little different, but was always perfect for my teenage depression.

Quite honestly I could list a 100, but who would want to read it!

Things I am hating today

I hate spiders. I know they are supposed to be good for controlling the insect population, but I would rather have a million flies in my house then just one spider. I just killed the ugliest spider in my bathroom. It’s body was at least the size of a quarter and its legs made it seem even bigger. It was brown with some kind of design on its abdomen. I tried looking it up, the closest thing I could find was a brown widow. Great, a poisonous spider, I hope he didn’t bring his friends with him.

I hate Conan O’Brien. Other people must not find him as repulsive as me, because he seems to be quite popular. I just can’t figure out why that is. I hate his hair for one, I can’t stand to look at it. All he needs is a pair of shorts and a Metallica tee shirt, dye his hair blonde and he would be the live version of Butthead. He is not funny. The only humor I can find in him is that he thinks he is funny. They should have give Adam Sandler The Tonight Show, then I would watch. Adam Sandler is funny. Of course I am sure many others have their own opinions, this is my two cents worth.

Just felt like sharing things I hate today.